Louis Michael Zaza

Louis, my only son. I can’t believe you’re gone. I know people say that all the time but the shock when it sinks in is horrific. The longing to have you back with me makes me shutter to the core. The knowing that I’ll never hear the sound of your voice or laughter and even your yelling at the top of your lungs is just too much pain for a mother to endure. All the questions zooming around in my head that I can’t ask you. Why?? Is this what you really wanted to do. I know some parts of your life were bad, but these things could have been dealt with by you. I walk around my home and look for you and then remember you’re not here. I couldn’t bare to tell nanny because you know how much she loved you. I would have to bury both of you. I told her you were in rehab with no phone.. she said she misses you calling her “My mini Guinea “. Your son is heartbroken. Your whole family is besides themselves. I pray that you have peace now in your eternal life. I promise I will keep you in my heart and mind until we are together once again.

Louie I can’t believe this. My heart hurts knowing I’ll never sit and crack jokes with you again. You are forever in my heart and when I get where you are I promise we will have that “date”